I’m jealous of my future self

Who got it all figured out

I’m jealous of my past self

Who was happier than I am now

I couldn’t have imagined

That I would end up like this

But I could still imagine

Could that be my life for a minute

 

If I try

Will I catch what I’m chasing

If I try

I feel like I wouldn’t waste this

If I smile

Pretend that I could erase it

Will I

Finally lose my self-hatred

And catch what I’m chasing

 

Oh, oh

I’ve been trying to figure me

For days but I’m still here

I don’t know what I want to be

When I’m not going anywhere

The years have all gone by already

And I’m still just like this

I could close my eyes and see

The life I wanted and me in it

 

If I try

Will I catch what I’m chasing

If I try

I feel like I wouldn’t waste this

If I smile

Pretend that I could erase it

Will I

Finally lose my self-hatred

And catch what I’m chasing

 

I have said nothing yet

I’m just jealous

I wish I knew where I was headed

I’m just jealous

Who is my future self

Is she happy where she is

I don’t know what I am

I’m just jealous

 

If I try

Will I catch what I’m chasing

If I try

I feel like I wouldn’t waste this

If I smile

Pretend that I could erase it

Will I

Finally lose my self-hatred

 

If I try

Will I catch what I’m chasing

If I try

I feel like I wouldn’t waste this

If I smile

Pretend that I could erase it

Will I

Finally lose my self-hatred

And catch what I’m chasing