Can’t I live for me now

Do you know what hip hop is

I can only tell you it isn’t this

I’m just gonna talk over

I know you want me to rap, but I’m just gonna talk over

I feel like I’m getting closer

But I know I can’t explode

Just ‘cause I keep on holding

Back on your account

Then what happens

I’ve gotta live for me now

I’m not your baby

I’m going crazy

Because you keep hoping maybe

This is just a phase

But it’s been more than half a decade

It’s insane

I keep running for nothing

I wanna live for me now, you know

How long should I let this go

On

You keep praying

And one day I’ll be (fine)

Gone

That’s all I’m saying

I thought that I was happy just a second ago

I have online friends kinder than my family so

I hit them up,

Hold them up

Hope that I don’t talk too much

I think I can live for me now

Ooh, you’re doing so well

Ooh, I just gotta let it blow over

I won’t say too much

 

Oh ah, ah

Oh ah, ah-ah

Oh ah, ah

Ooh ooh

Ooh ooh

 

Oh ah, ah

Oh ah, ah-ah

Oh ah, ah

Ooh ooh

Ooh ooh

 

 

I’ve lived for all of ya’ll long enough

I don’t even recognize myself

Since when am I a nine to five

I have no life

This isn’t fun

I just wanna write

I’m forgetting how to write

I’m forgetting how to live my life

Forget it if you think I’m right

How could this be enough

I keep pushing to do music

But the pushing makes me tired

Now it’s too late to do anything

And I’m still here with nothing

How long had I been falling

All these damn

Cheap tricks

Keep me pushing

To my limit

I’m going to break

Always pushing when it never even mattered

If I fall into tatters

If I crumble

In this nine to five

But forget it if you think I’m right

I gotta live for me now

 

Oh ah, ah

Oh ah, ah-ah

Oh ah, ah

Ooh ooh

Ooh ooh

 

Oh ah, ah

Oh ah, ah-ah

Oh ah, ah

Ooh ooh

Ooh ooh

 

It was never supposed to

Take this long

To get me started

It was never supposed to

Be this wrong

But I’m so tired

And everyone keeps pushing me

How is this my new normal

Y’all are insane

If you think I’m normal

I’m not the same

I know your daughter

But I’m not her

Anymore

I live for me now and if that means

Closing doors

At least I’m standing and not bleeding

On the floor

I’ve been too clean

You think I’m not me

Anymore

 

At least I’m trying now

You should be proud

I’m standing up for myself

Even if you hate the person I’ve become

At least I’m me now

 

At least I’m trying now

I’m sick of crying for attention

And doing nothing when I get it

You should be proud

Even if you have the person I’ve become

At least I’m trying now

I don’t to resent this

But I already missed the moment

My bones are catching up to me

Even before that honestly

I should’ve tried harder to be

At least I’m trying now

Please just let me live for me now

Please just let me live for me now

 

Oh ah, ah

Oh ah, ah-ah

Oh ah, ah

Ooh ooh

Ooh ooh

 

Oh ah, ah

Oh ah, ah-ah

Oh ah, ah

Ooh ooh

Ooh ooh

 

I live for me now

 

Oh ah, ah

Oh ah, ah-ah

Oh ah, ah

Ooh ooh

Ooh ooh

 

Oh ah, ah

Oh ah, ah-ah

Oh ah, ah

Ooh ooh

Ooh ooh

 

I live for me now