My ideation changed

The thought of dying in my sleep?

Frickin’ scares me now

I don’t want all my friends to feel lonely

Even when my family doesn’t deserve me

I guess that makes my friends, my family

 

You are an exercise

I’m learning to be nice

But I’m willing to sacrifice

If it brings a smile to your eyes

 

I find myself crossing lines

Which ones are your morals and which ones are mine

Do this all the frickin’ time

You know I love you, right

 

My ideation changed

The thought of dying in my sleep?

Frickin’ scares me now

I don’t want all my friends to feel lonely

Even when my family doesn’t deserve me

I guess that makes my friends, my family

 

You put the stakes in the sky

You even make mama cry

But I’m the black sheep in the sty

‘Cause reputation is the law

I live your way or not at all

I bite the leather even though

Your values twist and they outgrow

The healthy mind

I think you forgot

That they’re not god

And you’re a fool in his eyes

 

My ideation changed

The thought of dying in my sleep?

Frickin’ scares me now

I don’t want all my friends to feel lonely

Even when my family doesn’t deserve me

I guess that makes my friends, my family

 

I don’t know if you can tell

What this song was supposed to be

I was just appreciating my loves

When did I get so angry?

Oh, I should probably text someone

Safe across the country, across the globe,

Or an hour uptown

Anywhere but here

Oh, I’m so grateful I could text somebody

I’m grateful that my friends are family

 

Because

My ideation changed

And I am no longer a sheep?

They love me as I am

Something I’m not used to, honestly

I know I always say this to you guys

Mm, mm

You know I love you, right