This ain’t a remix   

This is ambition   

I wish I was livin’   

The top of the mountain   

Measure in digits   

But I never wanted   

I can’t lose my vision   

I wish I was livin’   

I wish I could say I hated it   

   

I felt like I was on a downhill   

Like some kind of perpetual failure   

I couldn’t hold my head up   

If I thought about where I was   

I always see the finish line, the cam lights   

Like I already did all that I can, right   

But I didn’t move one bit   

Only sliding downhill, waiting for the end   

Just plain wishin’ I was livin’   

Not slippin’   

The trick is   

If I did it   

What’s next   

What’s waitin’ if I take a step   

I’m damn sure it’ll be regret   

I’m frozen stiff but   

I wish I was livin’   

   

I wish that I was competent

I wish I had accomplishments 

Eff it, I’m too obstinate 

The ice cream truck just passin’ by 

Proof it’s no apocalypse 

Even if I’m stuck in this 

Wishin’ I’d just do a little better 

Wishin’ the rain would go away 

Like I’m dependent on the weather 

Has it ever been the opposite 

I’m hangin’ on loose threads 

But they golden 

The only one failin’ to swim 

The only one in the pool so foolish 

I should’ve taken lessons 

Pulled my head out of the clouds 

Before the rain came down 

Now I’m weather-dependent 

And all the hate comes out 

Wish I could say I hated it? 

Proof is lovin’ and livin’ it 

 

There is no redo 

You get what you get 

I wish I was livin’ 

Life missin’ regrets 

I never want to 

Lose sight, got the goals in view 

I wish I was livin’ 

Every minute 

The seconds passin’ through 

Hold on while I make a wish