I Once Was

Who am I

And does it matter, no

I tried to die

To lose my past self, but

I just got by

Did what I had to, oh

Redrew the lines

Abandoned the paper

Total erasure

 

I made the choice to throw away

The identity they chose to make

Rejected the rifles they told me to raise

Dimmed all the lights they stole from me

 

But that was my decision

I have full permission

To do what I like

With my own damn person

 

If I went on to erase

Every last trace

Of the girl I once was

The one they were proud of

That’s my life to change

 

You have no right

To undo my story, no

Claim it’s your fight

When you know nothing, but

Buzz words to type

Ignore tens of centuries, though

That story is mine

How dare you erase me

How dare you erase me

 

I broke the chains and tore the ties

From the identity they tried to design

Rejected their wrongs and ripped free

Replaced all the lights they stole from me

 

But that was my decision

I have full permission

To do what I like

With my own damn person

 

If I want to erase

Every last trace

Of the girl I once was

The one they were proud of

That’s my life to change

 

You say there is no debate

You say there is no nuance

But I exist, I exist, I exist

 

You cannot simply erase

The person I once was

‘Cause I exist, I exist, I exist

 

How dare you try to

Ha…

Way to make this about me

I’ve got no business being angry

I’m so sick of everything

Log off, remember to breathe

 

At least I’m inside my room

I can’t be mad when I think it through

I’ll delete what I sent, too

The sun will be here soon

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