Look in the mirror 

You’re looking fine sir 

Such a pretty girl 

What are they saying, this is absurd 

 

I’m trying hard to find 

The sparkle in my eyes 

My face’s light 

The one they claim to love 

But all I see 

Is two full cheeks 

Why do I eat 

All those heavy things so much 

 

My mom said she was jealous 

That I only have one meal a day 

But she also wonders why I haven’t 

Been able to lose any weight 

The doctors and “doctors” tell me to eat less 

And be sure to hydrate 

But nothing I do works 

I hate looking in the mirror 

 

I remember back in high school 

I used to think I was fat 

5’1”, 1-25 pounds, size 4 

I can’t believe now I had a body like that 

And I still thought I was ugly 

I thought that no one could love me 

Turns out it was easy to want my body 

In fact I couldn’t get them off me 

 

My therapist got scared when I said 

Sometimes I feel like I need to rip off my skin 

I’ve changed, now I just lose myself 

In my dreams. What’s reality? I’m still sleeping 

 

My colleagues said they were jealous 

That I start working hours late 

Because I’m weaker than depression 

HR let me fill an ADA 

Part-timers don’t get paid when the office 

Is closed for the holidays 

But nothing I do works 

Being an adult is the worst 

 

I had meant to write about 

Looking in mirrors 

And feeling let down 

This wasn’t what I wanted 

But it’s clear now 

I’ve got untreated problems 

 

This is only me 

One of billions of stories 

That never get (t)old 

Look at me 

So I can finally see 

A pretty boy, a pretty girl 

Fuck the goddamn mirrors 

 

We are all some kind of jealous 

Life gave us a sour taste 

Why do we deserve to feel so pathetic 

I wanna throw the lemons back in its face 

All this effort just to love our reflections 

Did you remember to eat today 

You look so pretty 

It’s just so much work 

To look in the mirror 

So instead listen to what I’m saying 

You look so pretty