I keep wanting you to find me 

In deathly situations 

So I can traumatize you 

How else will you understand me 

 

I want you to see me shake 

And look in your eyes for the pain 

I want you to see me hurting 

See you want to take it all away 

 

I wanna watch you helplessly pity the 

Mess breaking down in your room 

I want you to be inconsolably sad a- 

Bout all of my trauma wounds 

 

I keep wanting you to find me 

In deathly situations 

So I can traumatize you 

How else will you understand me 

I’m sorry 

It means I love you 

 

I’ve never been alone but I’m always lonely 

Starving for attention 

Even I’m struggling to know me and love me 

Starving for the closest thing to affection 

 

I keep wanting you to find me 

In deathly situations 

So I can traumatize you 

How else will you understand me 

I’m sorry 

It means I love you 

 

I want you to see me slit (only able to) 

Imagine how much pain I’m in (that I would want to) 

And wish I didn’t want to die (if I knew how to) 

Wish you hadn’t tried to fix things 

 

I keep wanting you to find me 

In deathly situations 

So I can traumatize you 

How else will you understand me 

I’m sorry 

It means I love you 

 

I keep wanting you to find me 

In deathly situations 

So I can traumatize you 

How else will you understand me 

When I say I’m sorry 

It means I love you