I feel stuck

In a complication

I forced myself

Behind a wall of rebellion

I object

To the intolerance

I put up

A shell of disobedience

 

I am not barred

By hesitation

I am not afraid

To do exactly as I see fit

How can I

In conformity

Go forward

And say that I loved every minute

 

I want to live

And I want to love it

I want joy again

I want to rise above this

I am not done yet

And if I’m honest

I want to live

I want to love it

 

I want to feel

Like I’m worth it

I want to be good again

I want to deserve this

I’ll have no regrets

I want to earn it

I want to live

I want to love it

 

I will control

My situation

I can be strong

If that is how I so choose

And I object

To my weakness

There is nothing

Standing between me and my muse

 

Is my destiny

Of my creation

Must I walk

With my tail between my legs

I want to fly

Against society

And follow

Every dream, every wish I ever said

 

I want to live

And I want to love it

I want joy again

I want to rise above this

I am not done yet

And if I’m honest

I want to live

I want to love it

 

I want to feel

Like I’m worth it

I want to be good again

I want to deserve this

I’ll have no regrets

I want to earn it

I want to live

I want to love it

 

I’ve been waiting

On an invitation

Busy searching

For a cure to be found outside

For a rescue

Without contemplation

But now I know

My salvation is up to me to decide

 

I want to live

And I want to love it

I want joy again

I want to rise above this

I am not done yet

And if I’m honest

I want to live

I want to love it

 

I want to feel

Like I’m worth it

I want to be good again

I want to deserve this

I’ll have no regrets

I want to earn it

I want to live

I want to love it