I get so fucking nervous when I hear

The people of my house coming up the stairs

I was about to sing a voice memo

Until I heard your footsteps and my voice froze

 

You walked into your room

And I thought I was good to go

Why did you open it again

I think I almost had a heart attack

Why am I so nervous

Just sing. Come on, Nabi. Just sing

 

I finally recorded but you can hear all the tremors

I wish I had more courage in my own home

Why am I so. Nervous

 

I eat when AM hits and stay up all night

I fall asleep when they birds play outside

And forget to eat until someone reminds me that I

Need energy for life

 

But I never cook up healthy things

It’s instant cups and eggs and cheese

I don’t even buy my groceries

Perks of living with my mom and dad

Why am I such deadweight

Just eat. Come on, Nabi. Just eat

 

I finally left my bedroom but left my appetite

How am I ever going to survive alone

Why am I so. Pathetic

 

It’s 2:30

I’m not tired

I’ve been typing all day

Talk about inspired

The clock is moving on

But I’m determined to finish just these last three songs

I can always sleep tomorrow

No, I know I will. Until someone reminds me

Life needs energy

 

And I’m not Taylor Swift

I won’t get paid for this

And as much as I wish

I could say it was productive

Why am I so.

Do I have to admit

I might not be the best fit

I can’t even get all my Legos in a row

Why am I so.